In a mother’s words: Mother of micro preemies writes about the journey

•Click here to read more about the Moan family and their tiny twin girls.

•If the Moan twins and their three cousins had all arrived on schedule, their grandparents would have have five new grandchildren in 11 days. Click here to read more.

Here are excepts from Kristin Moan’s postings to the family’s Caring Bridge site. To read their full story, go to and type in themoanfamily.

Feb. 2, 2013

“As always I am sure we will have a few good days then a few bad ones, followed by

Dylan Moan
Dylan Moan
Hayden Moan
Hayden Moan

another good one. It’s the nature of the game, as I am told. Not a game I would pick out of the closet for game night. I am exhausted.”

Feb. 6, 2013

“My Mom posted a picture of their diaper one day (which is too big on them) and it is the size of an iPhone if that puts it into perspective.”

Feb. 8, 2013

“I sat and held each girl’s hand and it’s amazing. I can’t wait until we can hold them.”

Feb. 9, 2013

“… We got to hold our darling little Miss Hayden Rae! From the minute the doctor told me I would be able to hold her today I just cried. … I didn’t get to hold my babies after they were born, I only got to see one for that matter, and I have never been able to do more than feel them through a plastic incubator. I am broken hearted and so happy all at the same time.”

Feb. 12, 2013

“Today in the NICU we met a couple who had twin girls at 24 weeks 6 days and many of the same experiences we are going through. The girls are now 6 months old and despite being barely 1 1/2 pounds (at birth) they are both doing well and ADORABLE! Nothing but smiles and so much love from them both. We each cornered a parent and got to hold their little girls while they gave us advice and answered our questions. We couldn’t talk fast enough. They made us feel normal, they gave us the little piece of comfort we have been missing the past 32 days. We are by no means alone in this journey but for some reason this helped us more than words can even express.”

Feb. 24, 2013

“Both girls are looking great and doing well. I actually bought them some micro preemie clothes online that were TOO SMALL! YAY!”

Feb. 28, 2103

“I’ve been questioned so many times over the past 48 days: ‘I don’t know how you do it.’  … I guess my answer to that is we just do. What choice do we have?’

Feb. 28, 2013

“All day I could not wait to get done with work. I was so excited. I knew I would get to hold Dylan today. For the first time. She is 48 days old and I have never held her, kissed her head or been able to snuggle her. Today was our day and I am so thankful for it.”

March 13, 2013

“I finally got to feel as though I had two little girls! The nurse and I dressed them up in their leggings and little shirts and took their first official photo together!!!! … I knew having identical twins would be super cool, but it’s absolutely amazing!”

March 17, 2013

“Everyone who has kids thinks their kids are the greatest and the cutest, and we are no exception. Every day they amaze us more, and everyday we watch them grow and feel so truly blessed that the Lord has given us these two perfect little girls. He entrusted us with them and they are ours. So many things just don’t even matter anymore, and yet now they are here and they matter more than anything.”

March 30, 2013

“The doctors and nurses all say the girls are looking good today so that is a good sign. There have been too many days where they say nothing at all. Those are not the good days.”

April 9, 2013

“All in all we are making it. I was talking tonight to my mom and she said she just knew everything was going to be just fine. That must be a grandmother thing because I have been scared to death most of this time (in case it wasn’t apparent).”

April 13, 2013

“Even now both of the girls have such personalities and are so darn cute.”

April 20, 2013

“Tomorrow is the big 100 days in the NICU! Boy what a journey it has been so far.”

April 22, 2013

“When I was talking to the doctor on the phone today after rounds, she kept telling me how good the girls were doing and how they truly were miracle babies. They have been through it all and we are so close to them being home and starting the next chapter in our lives. We are on quite a journey, but have grown stronger and felt more love than we could have ever imagined.”

April 24, 2013

“In the very beginning I had a very hard time bonding with the girls because I was so deathly afraid of losing them. Now I am so in love with them they consume me. I guess that is my first sign that I am a mother. It is such a good feeling and heart wrenching at the same time.”

May 2, 2013

“Hard to believe that today is the girls’ due date. We have one home and one not too far behind her.”